The answer to the title is: In my Head.
I got a few realizations from the beginning of my day and I want to share some of these to you. some of these, i think, are silly but hey, aren't we all like that sometimes? :)
1. I already decided to PERMANENTLY remove my retainers.
I was actually wearing braces for two years after that I was expecting this to hear from my Dentist: "Yes, you're going to wear retainers for one year."
NOT.
what she actually said was this "You're going to wear braces for five years."
the only thing that my brain processed was the word five. I asked my Dentist in my 19 year old way before. "WHAT?! FIVE?!"
long story short I can't do it. so, this is my third year and my last year with my retainers i mean, my teeth did not return from its previous state of calamity so its fine, I guess. (LOL)
2. Parent-Children-Grandchildren-Love.
I was on the Jeepney this morning and heard three elderly people talking about how their children grew distant with them since they got their own children.
"Well, that's how life works." Granny said.
"My love for my children did not change but it was them who changed." Grampa said looking out on the road.
"The love between my children and grandchildren is the same but the love that they give back is really different" the third Ganpa said while tinkering with his bag.
Well, that's deep. I mean, i don't know what to say since I'm not a grandparent myself, but will be soon. hearing them saying those things in their end made me sad and think of my parents also. what is their feelings as to what I'm showing them? do they know that that is my way of showing my love to them (by annoying my brother and sisters, Kidding!)? are they feeling the same as these three grandparents here? would I like them to say these things when I have children of my own? the thought scares me but whatever, it crossed my mind.
It's like I'm having mind time travel in the Jeepney. I'm seeing myself with children and thinking my what my parents will say to me and what would my children say to their Grandparents...etc. like my life flashed before me but not really. I don't know!
3. Shades and headphones.
This is the best way to ignore people reasonably! you pretend you don't hear what they're saying or pretend that you're not looking at them and pretend you didn't see them. like being invisible. I'm not an anti-social here but we do have times that we just want to be alone with ourselves and be invisible in the crowd just because you want to and being alone with yourself in the bathroom is just ridiculous.
Doing that today, and will be doing that in the following days to come whenever I'm alone in the crowd, is nice. I can look straight into someone's face, specially if he's worth the second look. I just overheard people (those three elderly) not noticing me noticing them while having a serious discussion with myself with what they're talking about.
They leave you alone.
Thank you to Bausch and Lomb for their Ray-ban Aviator shades.
Thank you also to Nathaniel Baldwin for your Headphones.
4. Random Songs I Heard Today.
I remembered my teacher in English gave us a homework to list every song that I heard that day, not through my playlist but just around me. that was the most creative homework ever! hearing random songs from different genre and artist while waiting for the chorus thinking that probably I'd remember that title from there. haha! don't ever tell me that I'm all alone in doing this.
the songs that I heard today may it be from the radio, or someone singing are:
The Prayer- sung by my bored friend.
Superbass- Nicki Minaj
Medley songs- Pentatonix
Sunday Morning- Maroon5
Freedom song- Jason Mraz
5. By the end of the day...
I got this:
A muddy converse.
having these sunny events during the day, the rest of the afternoon rained. let's welcome the rainy season with random realization of everyday events with our trustee umbrella and a heart that never back down during life's heavy rain. because by the end of the day it's always night, Haha! but seriously, have you seen a person being beaten down with every shitball that came through with crappy and ill-gotten moments in life that emerged weak after those events? I have never seen one.
we tire after those kind of events but we don't remain tired. we rest then we make another step that soon will break into a run.
so get those shoes dirty with mud and make sure it leaves a mark.
Live life
Love more
laugh Hard
